I’ve given up the whole “middle of the day sun-gazing” thing
my eyes aren’t good enough to see it without strain
some practitioners of Bate’s method say that you should only look at sun when it is very bright, to see if your eyes are weak, for if they are strong it will be just as looking at a flower
but forget that
it caused some disturbances
i’m back to within the +/- 1 hour of rise/set
the “safe” zone, with no UV
its really quite good
doing it 1 hour a day, both rise and set, which is not HRM protocol precisely
now what I have noticed is today I got up and did sunrise, and when I went to the store many hours later (after much sleeping) there was a HUGE clarity shift in visual keenness,
it seems vitally important, for photosynthesis and healing of the mind body and eyes and everything
to only do within 1 hour of sunrise and set
and the giant hot mid-day sun seems a waste of time.
now the situation is that lately i’ve had so much energy that i don’t want to sleep, and have to trick myself into doing it, like going to bed at 8 a.m.
i also do not have any hunger at all, and am going to fast
the orgone energy generator under my bed and the quartz necklace i wear are giving me quite a bit of energy and i often get the impression i could go without sleep, or sleep only an hour or two a day.
i do not feel particularly joyous however walking home gazing with my fingers in a mudra some pangs of love and joy hit me
i am noticing a giant rainbow aura as the eyes focus and defocus and heal around the sun as a very large circle, containing as many colors as possible for me to see indigo being the highest i got to
it came without me expecting it and there was no “effort” to keep it there, to 'want" to see it didn’t help it stay but it was fairly persistent.
it looks a lot like psychedelic Hindu paintings of auras.
*actually I am a bit frazzled on the issue of fasting
it is not that i hunger it is that i enjoy food
and am at a healthy weight
and it is not that i do not have energy, i have plenty
mainly it is that i do not yet drink enough water, and so thirst and persistent dehydration are mistaken as hunger
which is something most people in america encounter 24/7
the benefits of extreme clarity and love and bliss far outweight eating waffles
however its not as if i need to totally quit eating, i can fast now and then effortlessly
the issue then is … what do I want ? if I had my own home to seclude myself in, especially in nature, i fancy myself doing extensive fasting + sun - gazing
I am interested in spreading this practice to heal obesity and various Americanized dis-eases and to do that I would have to see for certain that I can go many days without hunger
and so I should bite the bullet and do it, and not cave into petty lustful taste sensations, just as an experiment.
perhaps the time is not quite right for it yet.